Hysterical Hyponchondriacs ...that's a good thing!

Well hello,

I am really happy that I changed the name of my blog... New blog name: The Sub-Total Woman? I do indeed think so! Ya know when I first had an inkling that I may have Breast Cancer? Somewhere in the early summer of 07 actually.. How did I know that? Well it just came flying out of my mouth in an argument that I was having with Rob. Now we really don't have screaming matches...in fact..we are pretty calm when we argue. I was just talking about the incessant "same" stuff that we always talk about, and I said: "What if I had Breast Cancer, would that make you like stand up and realize that there is more to life than just a clean house?" Hmm... he stopped and looked at me and was like: "What do you mean?" Well he asks me this question because at this point he is scared...because I tend to get feelings...thoughts, and they usually come true...Bad or Good...scary or not.

He looked at me...and said...and I will never forget this.. (I was standing at the edge of the bed with laundry in one arm, and he was in the bed looking at me) he said: "I would never want that to happen to you..never." "I would never want anything to happen to you." Which is a good thing...because I honestly sometimes think the piano wire trick..was invented just for him!

So..I thought about it for a few days after that... and I ignored it. But as fate would step in...around January of 08...is when I had the dream. So.. I listened to the dream...and I do believe that I am alive because of it.

Listen to your intuition...even if your intuition is telling you something bad..don't ignore it EVER! Because we are mind, body, and spirit...all connected in one happy package. We live as if we are 3 in one... and we are not. Take all three aspects of you..and make them work together to be more aware of what is going on with your body.

Kinda like when someone is in the ER room waiting, because they are having terrible stomach pains...only to find out that they are about to deliver a baby! I don't get that... so completely unaware of themselves. Or..when someone is ignoring signs of ill health...for such a long time that they only come to the realization when there is a complete impairment of some limb, or eye.. Come on folks.. wake up... Don't be separate...

If you are a hysterical hypochondriac on the other hand...keep being that way...just don't tell everyone.. until you know for sure that you do have that "brain tumor." (Verifiable from a CT Scan!)

Unite...come together..and live!

Stacy

Earth Hour 2009

Well... I do believe that we can come together for a cause. Earth Hour 2009 will be awesome.

Take a look at the video:


Vegas will be dark...for an hour...pretty cool huh?

Stacy

TGIF

It's Friday finally. I am happy about that. Down time...

Wrote an email to Ray's teacher today..she is a sweet heart.

I'm a bit crabby..and grumpy... I think Tired.

Ya..that's it..

So... no more writing..


LOL..

ME

Little Wonders.....Rob Thomas...

Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

Let it slide
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you
And I don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by
It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget
the way I feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twisted turns of fate
Time falls away
Yeah, but these small hours,
These small hours
Still remain

Yeah, oh they still remain
These little wonders
All these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders
Still remain

Trial and Suffering..or Blue Butterflies?

Hey It's Valentines Day.

Had a really normal day today. Didn't do anything..but clean the house..go to Sam's club and then just have Crab legs. I sat down with Coco, and Bear and Ray...it was a good dinner. We talked about my life..from when I was a little girl to now. Boy that took a long time.. all the while we had a large pizza pan in the middle with tons of Snow crab legs.. asparagus, melted butter..and lemon. We all just grabbed legs..ripped them apart..ate the meat..and laughed and talked. I never knew some of the things that CoCo told me of her life. Interesting..how your life shapes you. Your experiences shape you into the person that you are today.

I find that people who have been through much in their early lives...usually fair better with crisis situations and just life better.. It's the ones who are sheltered in life... the one's who haven't been through much...I don't know, maybe I'm off base..but honestly it seems that they tend to just take things--crisis so much harder. Like they are looking for that white horse to take them away---or Someone to jump out and say...nahh..this isn't really happening.

The Butterflies..I just thought they were beautiful all flocked on the tree...

Helen Keller says it best: "Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved." Helen Keller

I do have to say...it's friggin true! I'm living proof..... Stacy

Flowers...Hearts....Sam's Club..

Hi......

It's Valentines Day... And boy have I had some conversations today. It started this morning with a call from my mom...she is so sweet, and always so worried about me. We had a funny conversation..and she was telling me all about her neighbor who was crying because her husband doesn't believe in Valentines Day. Honestly..what man does? The men, actually think Geeze..I have to go and get flowers or a card, or something else...I was in the line at Sam's club an I saw a man holding flowers...he looked a bit hurried, because it was about 5:30..and I wondered what was going on in his head.

He was in line at Sam's club...getting a bouquet of flowers...I kinda felt sorry for him. He looked goofy to me. I'm not judging, no not at all, just stating the facts. I could tell that he was not at all comfortable with his purchase. Like if he was getting a DVD of "Saving Private Ryan" or the whole 5th season of "South Park" he would have looked much more comfortable with his purchase. He was thinking... " I hope these are good enough." "Are these good enough?" "SHIT..what if she doesn't like them?" He was looking at every flower, and smelling them and then looking again... The poor soul. All of this for a bouquet of flowers that will be put into water, then be thrown out in the trash with the empty milk carton, and the empty box of cereal.

All of that...just to give someone flowers. Well...as I stared at him a bit more..(out of the corner of my eye...I'm not a stalker!) I then started to feel good for him. Good that he took the time out of his day to just pick up a bouquet of flowers from Sam's Club. Then I though that the woman who was to get those flowers..was actually lucky that he took the time to go to a where house superstore to get flowers! People were selling all kinds of flowers on the street corners...flowers, bears..candy.

So as I checked out of the market...I watched him smile...say thank you..and then turn for the door.. Happy with his purchase. Happy to make someone else happy. I guess that's all that really matters. Just as long as you are happy! Because, Life's to short to be anything but happy!

Stacy

And You Wonder Why?

Are the camera's rolling?

They have to be..... again my life! Never get a break. But hey that is what this dream is all about I guess.

I can't talk about what is going on right at this time..but I will reveal in the future..

Well...I changed my blog...I like the butterfly! Is that a Butterfly?

LOL...Little blue Butterfly...

Oh I must say I do love my friend Christina in Texas...she is a great inspiration and an amazing person!

Love you all....

Hello! Nothing much to report on my health. Besides the fact that I almost had a heart attack yesterday. I can't tell you why....but I will soon. Other than that...its just a normal day of watching the fish swim, watching the clouds ...oh..no clouds today!

I really think that life is just crazy. Honestly. Just when you think you've got it down, BAM something hits you like a freight train.

My health is good...and it will keep getting better. I have been on the treadmill, and walking everyday which will help with my joints. Which by the way are always sore! A side affect of LIFE I think!

Wanted to write in the blog today..so to report any changes in my world. Oh yes, how my world changed yesterday....

I will tell you when I can. Is it good? I think so... oh the picture above..it's Bear and CoCo... aren't they cute?

Stacy

Jack and Jill vs. The World

DREAMER: "Well I come from an Island, its called the Island of Heart. It's surrounded by the sea of Intuition. The days are short and the nights are even shorter, and every dawn a fresh breeze blows away the static thoughts and dead ideas."

REALIST: "So, I come from the planet earth. My people are stubborn and set in their ways. Our ideas don't just float in on a breeze. We plant them in the ground, and watch them into big ass trees, with big ass roots. I eat dreamers for breakfast!

DREAMER: Ya Right? You drink your breakfast from a can!

I have always been called a Dreamer...and mostly in a derogitory sense...Keep your feet on the ground! I'm told...Don't reach for the stars. You're such a Dreamer! all the while shaking their heads, tsk tsk tsk...

Well you know what? You BUZZ KILLERS! I have this little half moon paper weight on my desk. It is silver and engraved. The inscription says "Dreams are necessary to life"

Another quote from this film that I love....

Jack and Jill are walking to his car...a silver mercedes.

She says, "Oh, he sweeps me away in his big boring silver bullet."
He says, "That's not good enough for you Princess?"
She Says, "No, I was hoping for a chariot and Unicorns, something a little less predictable!"

I'm so the "she says." The Dreamer.....and I am so happy for that. I will never keep my feet on the ground...I will never stop reaching for the stars..and I will never stop being me...until me stops...

:)

Touchin Base

Just a quick note to say hello....

I am underwater actually....been sick, kids sick...everyone sick. So going to get an x-ray tomorrow on my chest...been coughing too much. Lets hope that we can nip it in the bud. Well it's been a few days I been sick... Like since last week..Today is Monday..and I am really happy that tonight is the season opener of Heroes and also Medium! Yea.

So I am just relaxing with my little one who is sick with an ear infection..I just coughing and coughing...

I will touch base this week...again..

Stacy

Germs...

Hi...it's been a while...

Well I thought that I should write at least 3 times a week. I really should...So I will vow to do it!

Well we have all been so sick...I have been putting it off..right? Like you can put being sick off..I should say pushing it off... I have been taken care of everyone..and it's been making me tired. Well we had to go to go away for the weekend for a Family function...and I was sooo sick the whole time. Drove home last night...

Just got off of the phone with my oncologist, and.......argh.... he won't give me any antibiotis...He thinks taht this is a virus that must work itself out...I told him that I will give him a call in a couple of days from the hospital and let him know how I am feeling. He laughed (nervously) and said that he would rather see me tomorrow and get an x-ray if I feel really bad. So..I will keep you updated.

My thought for this: I know me. I know my body...do I have a virus? Nope..it is some icky mean bunch of germs, actually having a party right inside my lungs! Yep, throwing a party, drinks, friends and the whole shebang!

I know I will need antibiotics...let's just see if I know me?

Stay tuned.......

Stacy

Super Bowl

Damn....

My Cardinals lost! I was fully expecting them to win, Warner to retire..and then be put into the football Hall of Fame...but no....the interception that he threw...cooked his goose. Ok...so ... on the goal line, ready to score..and Warner has 4 downs...it's 1st down he throws a short pass....in the endzone..(he's on the 3rd yard line) That is 3 yrds to pretty much a victory. He throws in interception. Now this is just no interception. It is one that makes Superbowl history. Never has an interception been returned for a touchdown for 100 yards. Yep, intercepted in the goal line, and the guy ran it all the way back for a touchdown for the Steelers! I just about died!

Well, that cost them the game, oh and the catch that Rothlessberger threw to Santanio Holmes with only 36 seconds left in the game. I may not be right on the seconds left, but it was less than a minute... I will try to find the catch on You tube...(Long pause) Found it....Here it is.... this is an amazing catch...and one I felt straight to the gut!



Well there has to be winners and loosers! But Curt Warner will always be a winner in my book!

No matter what! He is an exceptional man, and has an even greater story behind his life. I'm sure most of you know it anyway..

Ok.....Still sick... calling the doctor...again!

Take care..

Stacy